I never liked the holidays. Only due to how commercial it has gotten over the decades. However, I like the gathering of family. Although, the fellowship and food were great: I began in the past years to fade in my depression. Focusing on how we as a society get more caught up with the myth of these holidays, the lies we tell our children, and how we can't pay rent cause we done spent a fortune on holiday food and gifts. It sickens me! But this year, on "Thankstaking Day (Dominique gets credit for that), I made myself get out of bed...told myself to create a great day...and I did. I was able to go see as many relatives as I could see. Took pictures, and indulged in every moment. Not focusing on the holiday but more so on the fact we all got a day off to enjoy each other. And for that, I am thankful. #thankful #grateful #live #love
Two days ago, I had found myself curled up in my bed not wanting to wake. You see, since 1996 I was diagnosed with depression. I was prescribed Prozac. I felt the medicine did more harm than good. Needless to say, I threw away the pills. However, I'm not encouraging anyone to do that cause some people may have a more severe case than I. At the same time, I made a decision that I can fight this illness. It has not been easy. Two days ago, despite all of the motivational speeches I listen to everyday, despite the affirmations I post,...I found myself crying...and not knowing why. It is an incredible overwhelming sadness. And if you allow it, it will consume you. So, I've grown to you understand that we take on so much that our spirits have to release the pain we endure(I think we all have some level of depression). At least, that's how I've grown to accept it. I had to give myself a few moments of release. Then, I had to hack my brain to start getting back on track. To fight! I know it is frustrating to explain to people who are doing their best to cheer you up. All you can do is be grateful, express yourself, and keep pushing. Write thoughts and feelings in a journal, a poem,...even a blog (see what I did there? Lol). Don't let the negative thoughts win. Surround yourself with everything positive. Appreciate the people who are sincerely doing their best to help. And for goodness sake, don't stay in the bed!
Rise and grind, Earthlings! Didn't want to get out of my cozy bed. However, if I want success it's not gonna come looking for me. Discipline! If you want more, you gotta do more! Period! Let's get it, y'all. #progress
Took me a minute... but I finally got it. It is called The Secret but if your think about it, it's really not. The power to create, control, to manage your life is within you! Once, I figured it out... I haven't been stressed. Of course, it takes you still working, ... still grinding... but you can create your happiness. Every morning, I meditate for ten minutes, repeat daily my goals, and work on my dreams. It is simple. Discipline and determination. #dreams #happiness #discipline